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I will be back shortly. Here’s a video. My treat to you, for your eyes and your ears.  I heart  Zooey Deschanel! xo

Have a good one!

But for today, the weather outside is way to beautiful to ignore.  I’d say it’s a lovely day to take some photos and reunite with my SLR, don’t you?

Have a woooonderful day!

I absolutely adore Corinne Bailey. Her music and her voice are so refreshing to this music industry. I am so glad she’s finally back with a new record. I will review it, as soon as I have some time to really listen to it as a whole. From what I’ve heard so far, I wasn’t 100% impressed, and found that her first album was way better. That tends to happen a lot though. Eventually the music grows on me over time.  Anyway, if you’ve never heard of her don’t speak to me unless you have a listen to some of her old stuff. She is one of my favorite current artists.

I am absolutely in love with this song, entitled Closer.  If you don’t know her, get familiar!  I have a feeling she’s going to be around for a really long time.  At least I hope so.

GETTING PERSONAL by CHRIS MANBY

It’s been over a month since I’ve finished reading a book, though this isn’t out of the ordinary.  Every now and again, as much as I love to read, I get distracted by things such as my writing and focusing on bettering it.  However, when the feeling of longing to get lost in a story slowly begins to creep back into my system, I have the tendency to opt for something light and easy, to work my way back into the habit of reading on the regular.  Thus, after almost an hour of standing in front of my book shelf, staring at the many books that it contains which have yet to be read, I chose this one.  This novel is about 3 friends who make a pact to write personal ads for each other.  After watching all of their other friends find love and get married, Martin, Ruby and Lou vow to find each other a perfect match.  Needless to say, it just wasn’t that easy.  This book deals with both the highs and lows of blind dates; there really are some crazies out there, but some of these people could also be quite genuine.  Though there are a few other sub plots in the story dealing with each of these three characters, I found at least one of them to be really predictable.  But I mean, that’s what chick-lit is right?  Predicatable?  Anyway, I got through the book in one day.  However, it wasn’t because I just ‘couldn’t put it down’.  It wasn’t one of those page turners that I so rarely come across.  Though, it was entertaining enough to maintain my attention.  If you want something quick and easy to read, this one is a good one to pick up.  I don’t know if I’d ever read it again, but it did it’s job of getting me back into reading and I guess that’s all that matters.  I have a couple more of Manby’s books sitting on my shelf, thanks to the Bargain section at a local book store.  I guess we’ll see if this writer grows on me.  For now, I think I’d like to read something with a bit more substance.  If anyone has any recommendations, please feel free to let me know.  It’s been awhile since anyone has really spoken so passionate about a book that compelled me to read it soon after.

LOVE – ANGELS & AIRWAVES

I have been a musical fan of Angels and Airwaves since their first album came out several years ago.  I’ve seen them live twice, listened to both their albums for long periods of time, and had been highly anticipating the release of their newest album ‘Love’.  How fitting that they choose to release it on Valentine’s Day right?  I’m not going to lie, when I first heard the album in it’s entirety, I was disappointed.  I found that a lot of the songs on this album sound almost identical to songs they’d released in the past.  I mean, it’s not all bad considering their previous songs are what got me into this band in the first place.  However, in spite of all this, I have actually really grown to love this album. I still think their first is by far their best.  Though I have several faves on this album already. The list includes: Shove, Young London, Letters To God Part II, Soul Survivor (…2012), Clever Love, Hallucinations and Epic Holiday. Given, this is more than half of the album, the other songs just don’t fly with me right now.  It’s not one of the albums I would highly recommend, because as a fan, I wasn’t too pleased myself. Nonetheless, the album is good.  Not the best, but good.  So if you’ve got an open mind, and don’t expect too much…you may just like this album.

Here’s a youtube video of one of my current faves off the album – SHOVE.

If you’re interested or even just curious about the album, they are allowing everyone to download it for free off their website.  Just click the link below and it directs you to their site.

http://modlife.com/AngelsAndAirwaves

There are so many things I wish I could say right now, but facebook and my blog are not the places to go into detail. Thus I will write as vaguely as I am capable with the mere hope of allowing myself an outlet of relief. It’s hard to stay positive in a world so filled with negativity. I’ve tried my best to ignore it. Sometimes the noise just becomes too loud to shut out. Right now is one of those times.

How do we avoid these annoying voices, when a lot of the times they are within our own minds? If I were in my teens again, my most natural reaction would be to run. But I’m not 17 anymore, far from it actually. My faith has once again been displaced. I’m being pulled at all ends, uncertain of where to even begin. My options are limited, or so it feels. I write so much about holding onto hope, and I’m not quite sure I’ve even mastered that myself.

Life is hard. Life is unfair. We’ve been told those same things repeatedly over the course of our lives. But knowing that doesn’t make it any easier. I try so hard to maintain control, in spite of the adversity that taunts me. I’ve been considerably successful at this. I don’t stop fighting, but I’m always fighting. And that’s the thing. I don’t want to keep fighting to survive all the time. I want to be able to sit comfortably every once in awhile.

I am surrounded by some people who have it so easy. Is it wrong that it irks me? I feel bad for even feeling like that. But how nice it would be to not have to worry; to be able to fall flat on your face and know that someone will be there to pick you up. Some people don’t even realize how good they have it. Maybe that’s what actually bothers me most. I don’t want to come off as ungrateful, because I’m not. I’m just tired of fighting, while I watch everyone else be so fortunate enough to not have to worry. Let’s switch places for once, shall we?

I know I’ll get over this. I’ll probably be over it once this note gets published. I just needed a mini vent. So thanks to whoever made it this far down the note. I appreciate your ears, or in this case, your eyes.

Sincerely,
K.D.

All of these places I emailed for an opportunity have not even gotten back to me with a response. It’s quite discouraging to say the least. I realize that we have to go through plenty of rejection, and even more disappointment before anyone ever truly gives us a chance. I assume my impatience is the real problem here, as it’s beginning to overshadow my passion – which is really all that matters. Maybe with life’s circumstances I’m just getting tired of waiting for things to pick up, and for anything substantial to happen. As much as accomplishing this dream will be the only thing that brings real meaning into my life, I can’t wait around forever. I’d like to believe that as long as I keep striving, everything I want, I could have. I think I’ve done a pretty good job so far of convincing myself of this. As I said in the note I wrote a few days ago about failure: ‘giving up would be a slap in the face to all the hard work and effort I’d already put in‘. I just want to know that I’m not chasing after a lost cause.

It’s amazing how often I have to tell myself all of this. It may appear that I am so confident in the future. Truth be told, I have my doubts at times too. That’s the thing. Dreaming is one thing, but believing is a process, one that I go through every single day. Sometimes giving up just seems sooo much easier. Sometimes giving up seems like the most reasonable solution. But I’ve never been one to give up and I don’t intend to start now. I’m not quite sure what I’m looking for in this moment. I think I just need a little push, because my doubts like to present themselves every now and then. I don’t ever want to be someone who could have done something meaningful with their lives, but never did. I don’t ever want to be one of those people who gave up when life was just about to happen. And I sure as hell don’t want to be put in the same category as those whose lack of faith and belief in themselves were their downfalls.

I really need to get back on track.
If dreaming makes me naiive, then so be it.
I guess we’ll find out sooner or later.
Let’s just hope I’m right and this will be worth it.

“Defeat may test you; it need not stop you. If at first you don’t succeed, try another way. For every obstacle there is a solution. Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. The greatest mistake is giving up.”

Call me old school, but I love the physical act of developing photos.  Being in that dark room consisted of plenty of good times.  But more, it was about seeing your product develop right before your eyes.  Though I love the sharpness and time efficiency my SLR has, I hope to use my film SLR more.  Take it back old school – before digital cameras were even invented!

One day I wish to create a built-in a studio and dark room, in the apartment I have yet to find.  Hopefully this all happens in New York.  If not anytime soon, Toronto will do…for now.

Anyway, as the nicer weather approaches, I expect to enjoy many days gallivanting the streets of Toronto, or anywhere really, in the hopes of finding some inspiration.

Come with :)

One of my absolute favourite songs off his new album Battle Studies.

Home now from a very eventful night!   This Valentine’s was spent with none other than Mr. John Mayer.  Say what you want about him, but the guy has got an infinite amount of talent.  For anyone to deny that, is beyond absurd!  I took enough pictures tonight, and only two videos before I got in trouble for recording – though so many other people were doing the exact same!  That’s besides the point. This is my third time seeing John Mayer, and I swear it gets better and better everytime.  The song posted above was not performed tonight, as I anticipated it would be.  Thus, I am posting it here.  Look out for the pics and my own personal videos from the show sometime soon (tomorrow maybe).

Best Valentine’s Day EVER!

I Love me some Lauryn Hill!

With the amount of concerts I have been to, she is among the few who I would have paid an endless amount to see LIVE.  Two of my fave songs off an already stellar album.  The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill.  If you’ve never heard it, we can’t be friends.

I have also failed to continue reading and posting my reviews on here. It’s been awhile since I’ve read a book, which is totally out of the ordinary for me. Thus, beginning tonight or the latest – Monday night, I am definitely going to be picking up a book to finally read, mostly because I miss it.

For now, I must continue cleaning.

Hope you all have a lovely day :)

Not too long ago, a friend of mine reminded me that at times the ‘journey is more important than the destination‘. I have kept those words extremely close to me, since the day I read them. I realize now that all these minor successes and achievements are equally important, not to mention essential, in the path towards my dreams. There were definitely moments within this past week alone, where I may have just as easily given up. There were slight hints of discouragement taunting my every movement and choice. However, after much strength and determination, I did not let them hinder me. I realize that this happens. Life has a way of making even the most possible things, seem incredibly impossible. Where we go wrong, is when we allow this to overshadow our faith.

Thus, I am opting for the road less traveled. Where creative minds, such as myself, choose to abandon these so called ‘idle dreams‘, in the pursuit of what society deems as practical. I refuse to be someone who just chases dreams, I want to be the one who achieves them. Given, it may be too soon to classify myself as such, I have taken on the mentality that failure is merely an option, and not a possibility. As long as I keep believing, it’ll happen. Maybe not today. Maybe not tomorrow. Maybe not in a few months, or even years, but it will happen. I trust that, and more than ever have faith in my ability.

Regardless of how rocky this road has already proved to be and will surely remain, giving up would be a slap in the face to all the hard work and effort I’d already put in. Therefore, I am allowing the passion to control my every being, until all of this becomes the reality I had envisioned as a child. All I have to do is believe.

“I believe life is constantly testing us for our level of commitment, and life’s greatest rewards are reserved for those who demonstrate a never-ending commitment to act until they achieve. This level of resolve can move mountains, but it must be constant and consistent. As simplistic as this may sound, it is still the common denominator separating those who live their dreams from those who live in regret.“
- Anthony Robbins

Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong anywhere.
And it’s gonna take so long for me to get to somewhere.
Sometimes I feel so heavy hearted
but I can’t explain cuz I’m so guarded.
But that’s a lonely road to travel,
and a heavy load to bear.
And it’s a long, long way to heaven
but I gotta get there.
Can you send an angel?
Can you send me an angel…to guide me?

I’ve been more than occupied finally picking up my guitar and trying to teach myself how to play.  Not to mention I’ve been constantly working on the stories I’ve started.  I barely have any time to breathe.  I’m always doing something.  Nonetheless, I’ve been extremely productive lately.

I’m going to keep this short, as I’ve only got a couple hours to work on some writing before I make myself go to sleep since I’m working tomorrow.

This is just a little update.  I’m still alive, just working really hard right now to better myself and my crafts.

I hope everyone is staying positive and focused!

It’s the second month into 2010 and I’m still feeling really good about it!

Whoohoo for DREAMS!

I’ll try to put something of substance up here really soon.

See you when I see you.